A Love Letter to my Body
I am sorry I was treating you poorly for years, not acknowledging all the miraculous things you do for me for every breath I take. I am sorry I considered you my worst enemy for years, restricting you food and essential nutrients, putting toxins on and inside you while pretty much starving you out, punishing you for being amazing?! - I know you must be mad but I promise I will make it up to you. I appreciate you and am grateful for you at last. Albert Einstein once said, “There are only two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle.” And you are my own personal miracle, enduring all these years of me being unkind while still having my back on a daily basis but especially during surgery and recovery. And even if I am all alone I still have you! I promise to now only act out of love for you and support you in any way I can! I will treat you with healthy yummy foods, I will treat you with mindful yoga & exercise, I will treat you and my surroundings with chemical free products & a will stay away from any toxic energy. (I will eventually move to a warmer climate zone because - let’s face it - winter is just not our thing). Thank you for giving me the greatest gift of all, LIFE! You are beautiful in every shape and age. I love you unconditionally and forever ❤️
It’s the first full moon to fall on a Friday the 13th in 13 years. Spooked? Don’t be. According to some witches and astrologers, the number 13 is auspicious — we have 13 full moons and 13 menstrual cycles in a year. So a full moon that falls on Friday the 13th is a special, powerful time. Today we might feel flooded with our emotions today and you might find yourself in some DEEP and honest conversations with friends and loved ones, approach it from a place of love and you’ll have the space to reach new growth levels in your relationships.
My daily wellness routine is what helps me show up as my best self. In fact, whenever I feel like I’m falling off the wagon I try to anchor back into these healthy habits (list below). Wellness for me doesn’t have to be something big, like a SPA weekend. Sure, that’s nice, too, but for me wellness starts with the little things I can incorporate on daily basis. Moreover I believe this routine is ultimately what is keeping me sane in this fast-paced world we’re living in.
If you follow me on instagram I probably already know that I’ve had a rough couple of weeks. Usually I’ll always put a smile on my face and then the negative emotions eventually fade. This time around, however, this didn’t work anymore (probably because I had unconsciously been suppressing these emotions by putting a smile on in the first place. One of my favorite spiritual teacher Candance van Dell always says “Get real on how you feel to heal.” which is what I am currently doing. And let me tell you IT.IS.HARD! But I’m also already seeing the benefits.
Forgiveness is a trickier thing than most people think. You can say a thousand times “I want to forgive you!” but it won’t stick. The inability to forgive or plain THE RESENTMENT is what is keeping you stuck. By resenting and blaming other people for our misfortune we unconsciously give our power away and that’s what makes it feel so heavy. ⠀
Looooove me some oat milk coffee. I sometimes even think about it before I go to bed. It honestly sometimes makes me look forward to waking up early in the am, ceasing the day. But there’s some legitimate resources out there claiming that we should all reduce our intake of coffee. And I do agree. However, do we really need to quit all together or is there another way, as in becoming friends with coffee again? I think so! Learn all about my healing relationship with coffee below 💤
I know it’s been super quiet on my blog lately and I apologize for that. I love writing and editing but I just wasn’t in the right headspace and did not know what to say. Many of you know that I was struggling with my health a lot in the past 4 years and had have multiple surgeries done. I also got diagnosed with multiple autoimmune issues which one of them was endometriosis.
Many of you know that I had been suffering from tremendous lower stomach pain, especially during my period, due to endometriosis. Read more about my personal story with endometriosis here. Fortunately there’s many things you can do to reduce this pain. With or without a chronic condition lower stomach pain can occur in the most uncomfortable moments, brining along sooo much stress. That is why I have been wearing special period undies for about 6 months now. And trust me when I say, THEY ARE A TOTAL GAME CHANGER!
Ever since my first period I’ve experienced lower stomach pain and heavy bleeding. So my gynecologist prescribed me the pill very early on. Even though I was on birth control for almost 10 years I still had awful period pain and my body started holding fluids. When I was 23 I decided to get a chopper IUD. After a year of trying very hard to make the IDU work I had it removed because the pain was just too bad.
„Ich liebe was ich tue!" Stretchen und in den eigenen Körper in Balance zu bringen war schon immer mein Ding. Als Kind machte ich Ballett und später war ich auf der Highschool in Amerika eine Cheerleaderin und ging auf verschiedene Wettbewerbe. 2014 entdeckte ich meine Liebe für Yoga als ich durch eine schwere Zeit in meinem Leben ging. Yoga half mir diese dunkle Episode meines Lebens zu überwinden, so dass ich nun mein Leben wieder in vollen Zügen genießen kann.
Stretching and tuning into the body and breath has always been a great passion of mine. As a kid I used to do ballet and later in High School I was part of the varsity cheerleading squad. In 2014 I discovered my love for yoga when I was going through a rough time. Yoga helped me to overcome this dark episode of my life so I can now enjoy life at its fullest and ultimately live a joyful life filled with love.