TRUST OVER FEAR

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I had been a fear-based person for years. I was always procrastinating, worrying for a new bad experience to wait for me behind the next corner. And guess what? The negative experiences kept coming and coming. Tossing and turning at night in bed being to anxious to fall asleep and dreaming of all the possible bs the future might behold for me. I constantly felt like a failure, and so I did fail. I was afraid of ending up all alone and so I did. It felt like everything I touched died but from afar I could hear that quiet voice getting loader and loader, asking,“What if you stopped worrying?“;“What if you let go of all the fear?“. What if...? The answer to these questions immediately popped up in my mind: If stopped worrying and letting go of all my fear I would be free. So I started cultivating TRUST instead of FEAR, HOPE & CONFIDENCE instead of WORRIES. It’s really a process and I still catch myself worrying from time to time but now I chose not listening to this “worrying voice“ anymore because I know it’s only my fear talking. I’m not overthinking things too much anymore and now good things seem to be coming freely to me now without me having to force anything. Yesterday I reached a milestone I was preparing for 3 1/2 years. I’d  been tremendously afraid of this event for so long and it ended up really being a piece of cake. Today I feel at least 20 pounds lighter, emotionally, as if I had just thrown away all my emotional baggage. And I realized it’s not my tasks and challenges that have changed, it’s merely my own perception. I am not afraid anymore, neither of the now, nor of the future... I’ve actually just started prepping for new adventures. Some of my friends say I should move to Australia to teach yoga there for a while (hence the photo). I’m not sure about the destination yet though... The only thing I’m sure of is that there’ll be an ocean...